This is going to be extremely informally written. I feel--no, I am having an anxiety attack. The boy I've written so many times about wants to come stay with me, and this time it's real. November 4th he's going to be here with his band, and he's going to be here with me. He writes … Continue reading Diary
Some people are like moss They grow in the dark, moist places And while to many They are decorative, pretty They absorb everything around them They are mildly toxic Or poisonous and indigestible Turning your insides They will attach to you And won't let go But highly revered You don't let go And the problem … Continue reading Moss
One day you're at a music festival eyeing a guy that looks like a dream. After many awkward glances with him, someone else appears and is trying to talk to you for their acquaintance that noticed you. And then you learn that he noticed you first. And his acquaintance strikes out, but he strikes up … Continue reading Unexpected
Sadness has washed over me because I tried really hard to be happy, but you're still there at the back of mind and I feel so stupid because you don't even think about me.
I know it's been so long. Well, it feels like so long. It feels like so much has happened and so much hasn't happened at the same time. Isn't it funny how life can be that way? I've really made an effort to just be happy. Every single thing that I do is something I … Continue reading Colors
Why is it That when someone Looks away We blame ourselves? I am not enough Because what else could it be? I didn't have enough looks I didn't have enough jokes I didn't have enough connection I didn't have enough Fill in the blank So now When others look at me Do they see an … Continue reading Enough
We are not born with them. At least, I don't think so. Unless I'm ignorant to this technology, I don't think there's a way to know what infants think. However, I do believe that when we are born and before we understand language, we are not born with insecurities. I'm on my menzie (period), and … Continue reading Insecurities